21

I don't think anyone reads this anymore.

So that's why i thought this will be a good place for me to place my thoughts down.

What does it feel like turning 21. I don't know. It's the same feeling i feel every year, very matter of factly. like yes i was brought into this world 21 years ago. This year though marks a significant moment in my life right? I guess 18 was big cause a lot of shit became legal, driving especially, but 21, it's just the final stage of adulthood. Full-fledged man typing this down now bitches. There's just been a lot going down this past year and i'm more tired than satisfied. or contented. or anything. Ever since the accident i've been feeling very fragile. yes i've moved on and yes life goes on but i can't escape the feeling that this all is just temporary. that like all else will come to an end. i'm a year closer to God. if only we aged backwards and all our loved ones come back to us. that would be worth celebrating.

We work and we strive for a little bit of money we spend on nice clothes and nice cars, nice holiday destinations. then we work even more to buy bigger things going to further places. then we die. and our children take whatever's left. you will be remembered for a moment. then forgotten just like our ancestors. this world is beautiful and evil. it gives you everything but takes it all away. live life to the fullest, but don't forget your purpose. cause one day it will all go away.

daryl is a bad girl!

idealistic, passionate, foolish. can't blame you for having dreams. but what if reality doesn't match up? You lie in bed and wonder and think and it eats at you and you can't sleep. It consumes you and why should you care? But you do. I've given up on you. It's easier not to care. I hope you find your peace


happy birthday daryl! I'll always have your back

uncertainty

It's hard to rebalance an unbalanced world.
Some doors are meant to kept shut. You open it, and it becomes too easy to walk through it a second time.

I hope you understand a bit of my stand. I DON'T KNOW YOU

" hey. busy?"
"nope, wassup?"
"nth..."

umm alright? i'm sorry, but apparently this topic doesn't interest me. i was expecting something here really. and what i got was anti climax. there was nothing, to talk about. now i'm all up for making new friends. but frankly i couldn't remember your name until we started talking on msn and your name was right next to your face. but you don't know me and i don't know you. i don't know what you like and you don't know what i like. basically, i have no idea what you are about and i doubt you have any idea about me too. so this should be where we find out more about each other. but the conversations led nowhere. and i was NOT interested in what you had to say. most of the time people i talk to, the conversations will just die out. we say hi in school, give a polite nod of the head. sometimes you just don't relate. you never know whats going on in the other persons head. so it's what you perceive that you will believe to be true. and your perception of me was the most negative you can think of.

these are your opinions and you are entitled to them. let me check my message, "egoistic and rude" as you put it. let it be. I have nothing to prove to anyone. if we get to know each other better maybe your opinions might change. maybe not. for now, this is how it stands. look at the bright side khai, now you don't have to bother about things/people that bother you. and as for you, judgmental, impulsive and self-righteous, i wish you best of luck. if we never speak to each other again, i will not shed a tear. frankly because I DON'T KNOW YOU.

haha i can't believe you gave me "advice". well at least it added humour to my mundane life.

who am i without you now

My heart is blue for you

You are the sun
You are the only one
My heart is blue
My heart is blue for you
Be my, be my, be my little rock and roll queen
Be my, be my, be my little rock and roll queen

You are the sun
You are the only one
You are so cool
You are so rock and roll

Be my, be my, be my little rock and roll queen

TGSTTIABFMWCS:Thank God seriously that today is a beautiful Friday morning with clear skies.

Its 640 AM right now. I always wanted to get into the habit of waking up early during the holidays. It really didn't happen but hey, at least now i'm doing better at it. Listening to Class 95fm every morning like i do on my way to school. Sports and Wellness starts at 8. I'll be going home after cause i've got driving at 420. I'm still thinking whether I should come back to school after driving at 6. Urgh man, i don't want to travel all the way back to clementi! but i have no choice, Stagewerkz is tomorrow. oh well. If I've got to do it I've got to do it.

I've finally went for floorball practice! I tell you my fitness is really bad right now. 2.4km and i'm dying. court training wasn't tiring suprisingly today. I didn't play that well but it's okay, after so long it's good to get the feel of the game back. GOAL: IVP team. haha damnit. I hope i get in. I don't want to malu after writing this post.